How I wondered what u are?

Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what u are
Up above the world so high
Like my darling Adam Zuhair

Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what u are

I remember being so wondrous, how my little honey would look like. Would he resemble his chubby ayah? Or would he inherit the big eyes from Mama?

But now, I can wear a big smile on my face. Senyum sampai ke telinga! Because my questions have been answered.

My baby looks like himself…

with chubby cheeks and dimples like ayah’s,

with big eyes and little dimples under his eyes like mine.

New environment

I never knew that whenever mothers and babies must be apart in those early months (when the mother returns to work), the separation is felt rather poignantly.

I myself do feel this pain when I dropped off Adam this morning at the sitter’s place. I got back into the car and cried on Sham’s shoulder. I felt like a useless and hopeless mother!

Fortunately, Dr Wan, being an understanding boss, he offered to bring me to visit Adam. Perhaps he couldn’t stand seeing my lamentable face from morning. (Was it that obvious? Heheh.)

I was so relieved and happy that I could breastfeed him that afternoon. Phew! Thank God it is still in semester break.